Zokita

( shit you might not care about )

My new LJ is azora_mysta. If for some reason you still want to keep up with me, go ahead and add that. If you're interested, I have some funny stories left to tell.

And for the record, CLDR is awesome as always. After I went into cowardly hibernation, it seemed to get exponentially more awesome. Keep it up. Because I'm a stalkery stalker who stalks. :3

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P.S. If you want to spread rumors about me next anon meme, be sure to make it good. ;) The only good thing I can see about my descent into the wanky bitch I swore I'd never be is that I might be as famous as Stormy someday. *fail at adding humor to srs post*

Meme night brought out the dark bitchy and wanky side of me, and I'm not proud of it at all.

For tonight, I'm going to go sit in a corner and think about what I've done. I know I can't be forgiven for being so thoughtless, rash, and thick-headed, but I can't do anything or work out what I want to write until I make sense of it all. It would have been better never to get involved in the first place, but it's too late for that now. The damage is by my fingers, and the guilt is mine to carry.

Remember: The Dark Side may have cookies, but the sugar masks the bitter, bitter taste of suffering. Leaves an interesting aftertaste.

I don't know what happened to me, but I think I've changed for the worse.

I had a sparkly fantabulous time at CLDR in the summer/early fall, but since then I've changed. I'm pretty sure I've forgotten how to make an interesting post, because since about November I've barely gotten any response every time I try. Which isn't very often. And I barely comment to others' posts anymore either, because I always think it'll be stupid. I always think I'll be stupid.

Is there a cure for this disease? Or even a name? Roleplayicus apathyirus? Does it spread through intimate contact? (in that case you'd better all back off before you catch it)

I'm not saying I'm quitting. I watch CLDR every single day and see some really cool things happening there. <3 It's just hard to post when I don't feel like I belong anymore.
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In other news, dog+muddy frozen lake=hell when it comes time to wash dog. *shudder*

( whee memes again )

...holy cheese puffs I never realized just how boyish I am. Clearly I should change my name to Kevin or Christopher or something.

So...anyone have a folk remedy for abdominal cramps that doesn't require drugs? I've been feeling stabbing pains all afternoon. Exercise seems to help some, but the pain comes back the second I slow down.

Should I stand on my head? Eat some bizarre food? Recite the nutrition label of the nearest bottle?

If any of your solutions work, I'll give you a simple fail sketch on request. Man, I should do that drawing meme thingy.

ETA: ILU PRESIDENT OBAMA NOW GO CHANGE STUFF AND SHIT. PEACE.

Ganked from broadwaystar12 because I'm a thief like that. Let's find out what nationality I am!
( sterotypes start here! )

Hello again! My dad's running late again, so I thought I'd update y'all about my ongoing quest to return to the internet.
( tl;dr narrative crap )

Until tomorrow, my f-list. <3

...er...whoops!

As it turns out, the RAM on my home computer is busted. The nice guys at Dell are sending a technician to repair my ill compy in a few days, but until then I have no Internet. Y'all will have to get along without me. I can get snatches of time here and there at the library, but I'm not available to RP or anything fun like that.

But! When I get back, I'm going to post my writings in my IRL journal during this period of separation. I'm even using LJ formatting and sparkle text in my IRL writings. I'll scan a page or two when I get back online and you'll see what I mean.

Random observation:

Most of my casual hobbies involve things that almost all of us do when we're little but most people give up as they grow older.
( Let me count my sins against adulthood... )
Secret? I love it. All of it. :D

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And now for the actual entry:
( cut for stupidity and fail )

I am officially too damn obsessed with this whole 'what everyone thinks of how I RP' thing.

I had a dream about the anon meme last night, and I couldn't sleep once I woke up from it. Yes, I'm serious. Dead 'effing serious. I was just settling down to have a nice dream, but instead in the dream I'm sitting at the comp browsing LJ. And the anon meme comes up. And there's like twenty pages of comments about how every character I play is such a horrible Mary Sue and I should drop like a rock.

...I really hope reality doesn't reflect the dream, but if it does? I'll take the crit. And maybe eat some ice cream. That's a promise.

Pointless anecdote time!

I was dragged along to watch my mom and her friends talk about their dramas in life tonight. One of them was talking about a drug abuser. She described him as "looking like a vampire".

Clearly it's a sign that Twilight has destroyed my universe, since the first thought in my mind was 'oh, does that mean he sparkled?' Now I'm picturing a sparkling teenage boy with greasy hair and sunken in eyes sitting in his dark, lonely room. I had to clamp a hand over my mouth to keep from laughing.

Sorry, Jesus.

Ten fandoms. Please tell me which character from each fandom (the ones that you're familiar with, anyway) you think I'm most like. Simple enough?

1) Sailor Moon
2) Pokémon
3) Power Rangers
4) Harry Potter
5) Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
6) Metal Gear Solid (for the lulz)
7) Cardcaptor Sakura
8) Any Nintendo character (Smash Bros. fandom, I guess?)
9) Final Fantasy
10) Sonic the Hedgehog

HOPPING ON THE SELF-INFO BANDWAGON UP IN HURR

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS: HOW DID YOU GET IT?
On my knee, there's a scar I got from running and tripping on a Lego when I was six. The Lego cut my knee open and the skin fell off in a triangle shape. I wish I was kidding. I remember crying so hard from the disinfectant and the stitches.

( MOAR UNDER THE CUT! )
LET'S DO IT!

Funny story I remembered today while browsing the intertubes, and I thought I'd share it, but before I do that...

THIS ENTRY CONTAINS FINAL FANTASY VII SPOILERS!

( Though you probably know it already, maybe someone doesn't, I don't know. )

So that's why I think of my unjust F on an assignment instead of the scene in question when I hear that theme.

This is actually the first bit of fic I've written in a long time. It was for the Power Rangers puppy pile meme, found here. The meme didn't have any fics of the original MMPR cast, so I thought I'd try to throw one in.

puppy pile: wherein multiple people pile on top of or beside each other in a friendly way.

( On a restless night in the Zord bay... )

I'm ill-equipped to handle the winds of change, and when they blow, I get completely disoriented.

( BAWWWWWW under the cut )

It seems I still have a lot to figure out.

Dear self:

STFU and be more positive and outgoing, goddam.

Love, self.

Mwahaha :3

I love you guys. Just thought I'd be evil for tonight. :D

( WHOOPS, FORGOT THIS PART *SAVES FLISTS* )

...I need to get this out.

( social insecurities ahoy! )